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Tuesday, December 10, 2013

Conquering the Beast (Alcoholism) by Becoming Superhuman

90 percent of alcoholics are likely to experience at least one relapse over the 4-year period following treatment!

I have been sober since 2003! I will never drink again because I am Superhuman and so are you!

Are you going to be part of the 10% that never touch alcohol again? The alternative is to drink again and be a statistic that lines the pockets of liquor store owners, alcohol manufacturers, doctors, lawyers, the government, and everyone else that stands to profit from your inability to be superhuman. Everyone profits from your drinking and then you die! don't give anyone the satisfaction.

The Crutch versus The Cure

Have you ever seen a vampire movie or read a book about vampires. Well if not let me tell you how you need to approach a vampire if you encounter one. You need to chop off its head and drive a wooden stake through its heart to ensure that it’s dead. If the morons are lucky, we will have a zombie infestation on this planet and then once you or one of you loved ones are bitten, you must kill the zombie despite the fact that it appears to be your loved one. Just like the vampire, once bitten and infected the body is simply a vessel. The “thing” that now exists inside the vessel is no longer your dear sweet relative. It is the undead; it is a vampire or a zombie or whatever else your imagination can come up with. The vampire appears to be human but is more cunning and evil in its intent. Its sole purpose now is too feed. Feed on the blood of the living so that it can exist in its current form.

Have you ever driven past a liquor store at 7:30 in the morning on a Tuesday in the dead of winter and seen beings huddled around the corner of the store inboard daylight trying to stay warm. They pace back and forth and barely converse with each other. They shake like leaves on trees in the fall whether it is 90 degrees or 30 degrees. Some are fortunate enough to be waiting in the warmth of their $80,000 car on their cell phone in a $2k suit. Others huddle under layers of clothes they found in a donation bin on the corner. These beings are also mere shadows of the people they once were and they will stop at nothing to feed. They need alcohol or they will cease to exist in their current form. They need to be treated with extreme prejudice and stopped. They don’t need to be killed because there is still hope. The problem is that most people don’t have the ability anymore to do what is right. Their brain has been chemically altered by alcohol and their body is dependent on it. Stop them before they end up in prison, kill themselves slowly, or kill someone else while driving drunk.

Despite your best intentions, there is only a few choices you have when dealing with someone that is an alcoholic. They do not in fact have a disease but they do have a habit that has taken over their body and their mind. Understanding that they are not the same person they were before they became addicted to alcohol is very important. They don’t even realize that they are not the same person. They never will unless you as a friend or family member have enough balls to do the right thing.

Here are the symptoms of alcoholism in case you did not know: http://alcoholism.about.com/cs/faq/f/prob_faq3.htm
Symptoms of Alcohol Dependence
·        Neglect of other Activities: Important social, occupational, or recreational activities are given up or reduced because of alcohol use;
·        Excessive Use: Alcohol is consumed in larger amounts over a longer period than intended;
·        Impaired control: Ongoing, unsuccessful efforts to cut down or control alcohol consumption;
·        Persistence of Use: Alcohol consumption is continued despite knowledge of having a persistent or recurrent physical or psychological problem that is likely caused or exacerbated by alcohol;
·        Large Amounts of Time Spent in Alcohol Related Activities: A great deal of time is spent in activities necessary to obtain, use or recover from the effects of alcohol;
·        Withdrawal: Withdrawal symptoms, such as nausea, sweating, shakiness, and anxiety when alcohol use is stopped after a period of heavy drinking;
·        Tolerance: The need for increasing amounts of alcohol in order to feel its effects.

Your choices when dealing with an alcoholic are simple. You cannot reason with an alcoholic, you cannot bargain with an alcoholic, you cannot trust anything the alcoholic says.


There are only three things you can do:

1.      Set the person up to have a nice sobering run in with the police by calling the police the minute you know this person is driving in his or her car drunk. This sometimes may be a sobering enough experience for someone to put them in a position to have to be medically detoxed and start thinking somewhat clearly.
2.      Pool your resources and have the alcoholic not the person put into a rehab clinic that they cannot leave under their own free will or threaten to have them arrested again.
3.      Sit back do nothing and hope for the best and watch this person die.

The light at the end of the tunnel is a wonderful thing. You will get your friend back, you will get your family member back but you must take the right action to do so. Anything other than  the options that I have laid out for you will result in death or imprisonment and the person will never be able to remain sober. They may stay sober for a week, a month or even a year but if you do not take aggressive action upfront, you will get the same results 99% of alcoholics face. They relapse and fail and many times they die.

Unlike the vampire or the zombie, your friend or loved one can recover fully from the habit that they chose to take on which in turn became a physical and mental addiction. They do not have a disease unless they developed one as a result of the damage they had done to their liver, heart, pancreas, etc. They can fully recover and be a better version of the person you knew. If you believe this to be true that read on. If you don’t than you will surely be offended buy most of the rest of this blog.

Choice: The American Medical Association labeled Alcoholism as a Disease in the 1940s in order to pave the way for the philosophy of AA and 12 Step. Effectively they were simply helping to line the pockets of Doctors and Pharmaceutical companies. It is not a disease. It is choice. There are liquor stores on every corner in every city. You chose to go in there once a week or once or twice a day. No one forces you. You don't wake up an alcoholic. There is no conclusive evidence that there is an "alcoholic" gene. Once you are medically detoxed you can live a healthy and happy normal life as long as you have the the self-Discipline not to drink. If you disagree with this than you will not be able to stomach the rest of this blog.

When I was admitted to the hospital for the last time I had acute pancreatitis. It was so bad, I was there for almost a  week. Lying next to me either strategically or by chance was a young boy whose liver had failed him. He had never touched a drop of alcohol in his life. He moaned in agony and threw up all night long every night. I had the chance to talk to him when he was highly medicated. It was the most uncomfortable series of questions and answers I had ever had. I was a coward and a failure. This boy would have given anything to have had a chance to survive while I was throwing it all away. My granmother had given me a statue of St. Anthony because she believed that it would help me. I gave the statue to the young boy because he appreciated it more than I ever could. I hope it served him well while he was alive. He died a few short weeks after I left the hospital as I asked his parents to keep in touch.

I understood how absolutely ridiculous it is for anyone to say that they have a disease when they actively participated in giving it to themselves. The only thing that was diseased was my mind and I needed to make a conscious decision to be stronger and smarter or die. Depressed? Sure I was depressed but the dual diagnosis thing is not real either. Stand and take stock of your life and make a damn choice. The boy I met in the hospital died days after I left. He had no choice and the last thing he was worried about was depression and anxiety medications.

If you feel your alcoholism is a disease and that you will constantly be in recovery, than I actually feel sorry for you. If you want to be coddled, call your mommy.You have built a world of excuses for yourself and a reason to fail and have a relapse. Calling something a disease gives you excuses. The truth is that after your body recovers medically and you get your head screwed back on straight, there is no evidence of disease. No one would be able to tell you that you had a problem with alcohol unless you told them. Alcoholism is a habit that takes over your body and mind and therefore become a huge health risk because with drawl can kill you. Your body becomes dependent on it and your mind will cooperate with your body in order to make sure you keep feeding your habit at all costs. However, it is only a habit. Cancer is a disease.

choice
 noun \ˈchȯis\
: the act of choosing : the act of picking or deciding between two or more possibilities
: the opportunity or power to choose between two or more possibilities : the opportunity or power to make a decision
: a range of things that can be chosen

Rewind 9 years and I am waking up in medical facility unable to walk or eat at 120 pounds. I was dragged there against my will by a very dear friend when everyone else in my life had left me for dead. Now this is not because they did not make an effort to help me climb out of the alcohol and drug induced persona.  They simply didn't know what to do. I was drinking a gallon of 100 proof vodka a day periodically throughout the day in order to function. I had more than a dozen episodes of acute pancreatitis and was a less than functioning alcoholic and drug user. I was eventually diagnosed with Chronic Pancreatitis  a few years later and asked to be put on pain meds to control the pain.The pain of these acute episodes has often been compared to childbirth for women. I passed out a few times if I was unable to get morphine fast enough at the hospital.


Acute pancreatitis usually begins with gradual or sudden pain in the upper abdomen that sometimes extends through the back. The pain may be mild at first and feel worse after eating. But the pain is often severe and may become constant and last for several days. A person with acute pancreatitis usually looks and feels very ill and needs immediate medical attention. Other symptoms may include
·        a swollen and tender abdomen
·        nausea and vomiting
·        fever
·        a rapid pulse
Severe acute pancreatitis may cause dehydration and low blood pressure. The heart, lungs, or kidneys can fail. If bleeding occurs in the pancreas, shock and even death may follow.
This is where the war stories stop. I am simply trying to paint a picture.
When I realized where I was and has been medically detoxed, I had to shake off the brain fog from the seizures and start remembering who I was again and start reconciling in my mind exactly what had happened and why. I would imagine that every addict goes through this process but more that 95% of these same addicts choose a different road than I chose. I remember standing in my room and going through every forced and impulsive thought that came to me. I would say that I went through all the stages of grieving because I had lost someone. I lost the someone that I was for 15 years. However I did not know who to equate the image I had in the mirror with the person that I was for the last 15 years because those years were as blury as a distant memory of dream. Those years were almost a feeling rather than a recollection of time.


I stopped the grieving process at Anger. So if you are a happy go lucky flower smelling sunshine and rainbows person than you may not appreciate this line of reasoning at all. However the benefits of anger as it has been defined by me have yielded a positive response. Many people will tell you that harboring anger will "eat you up inside" Well, that may be true if you don't know how to use it.



The roads that people can go down are infinite but my road was paved with anger and hate. Anger for what I had allowed myself to become . Hate for what whom I had become. Anger towards all of the influences that I allowed into my life that ultimately destroyed me. Hate for not knowing that I had never really taken the time to understand myself. I never gave myself credit for the positive attributes of my life versus all of the negative.Rather than facing the truth about what and who I was, I masked everything with drugs and booze to compensate for my failures as a human being. Therefore I was able to reduce myself to the same level of a lab rat in a test environment of my own creation. My mind and my body were taken over by mostly alcohol and there was nothing left of who I was. Who was I to begin with?

The answer is, " who cares" It is who I am now that matters. The gift of understanding how to use anger has allowed me to love myself and those I care about.The past had become as irrelevant as my future was when I was drunk. In that moment I decided  that day was the day I was reborn into the beauty of Anger, Discipline, Dedication and an appreciation for Pain as the mechanism for evolving into the man I am today. There truly is no gain to be hand without spiritual, mental, emotional, or physical pain. There is no easy way to reinvent yourself alone. Drinking is everywhere in business and in your social life. People will constantly ask you why you are not drinking. They will buy you drinks even after you say that you are"all set" I tell people I am training for a race. I run obstacle races. the funny part is that, I love telling people that I am training because after everyone else has about 6 drinks in them, I smile.

 I smile because I know they are destroying themselves while I will be out the next morning running a 5k for kicks. I'll be up at 6 am ready to conquer the day. I'll be playing football on a Sunday morning while everyone else is sleeping. I am superhuman. The people that criticize you for not drinking most likely have a problem and feel guilty about their own drinking or obesity, or just about the fact that they are lazy and out of shape. I am better than that now and am very proud of that. Keep drinking fools! Everyone is getting rich off your habit!



I walked out of that medical facility/rehab center 4 months later 20 pounds heavier and able to run 3 miles as if it were something I had done all my life. I never stopped exercising my body and mind. I closed my mind and began to repair my body because without my body working properly and at high degree of efficiency, I was not going to be able to use my mind. Exercise of the mind and body seemed to be the way to go. I had started lifting weights, running, and reading anything I could get my hands on about my condition and about things that interested me.

90 percent of alcoholics are likely to experience at least one relapse over the 4-year period following treatment!

You don't have a disease! You have a Habit! Overcome it and be better than you were before! Become Superhuman!

1 comment:

  1. Amazing blog, such truth here. Nearly 2 years sober looking forward to Christmas and watching the sheep poison themselves :)

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